Not at anyone.

I’m not angry at anyone but myself. Like, when I get really hyper. And I do things just because I can, and then people just get annoyed. I guess I asked for it really. I know I shouldn’t act like that, but I do anyway. And it isn’t anyone else’s fault but my own either. I wonder if people notice when my mood changes, either over night or over a class period.

I am seriously contemplating just keeping to myself, something I find so hard to do. As human, I crave companionship. However, that companionship also feels very wrong. So, I think I’ll just cut it out. Stay in my room, not talk to anyone. Sit by myself, not sitting with anyone. I really am okay when I’m alone.

And I really am itching to cut again. Just really needing it right now. I think I might feel better if I have a reason to hide. Yes, a reason to hide.

I wish I was invisible.

~ by lingeringmemory on March 12, 2008.